Huh......

This year is finally starting as expected.....but my feeling towards camp is still inside my head....I tried to make it disappear but it is still kept inside my head.....

Everytime I saw the members or AJK inside my group somehow it brings me back to the camp.....Even though I know it is over for like 2 or 3 weeks but I still missing all the fun i had with my group.....

Maybe I couldn't helped them to get the first place in the competition but as a leader I really hope that they had a very very interesting camp.....That's all I can give to them after the camp....

For the coming few months...I think I will need a lot of patience and also a lot of energy to make my last year in SMK CHUNG HUA MIRI exciting.....

First, it would be the prefect camp... then I will go for Lion Dance.... after that, I need to prepare for concert....and then it will be volleyball competition....lastly probation....

Should I be happy or sad....Kinda confusing....

That day.....I wasn't planning to see her...but when i stepped into the class i found out that there lots of brass band student in my class.....I thought they only come for a while and leave but they stayed and after a few minutes I saw her walking this way....The first thing I had in mind was...' I should go to the next class with adrian them...'

When the time stop at 8am..I thought she would had left but she didn't...instead she stay in the class talking with friend until the teacher came.... When me and my friends go carry some text books I saw her....walking towards my class again.....I am really confused now...should I talk to her or just leave whenever she comes to my class.....

Camp...

For the first time of my life...I had the chance to lead a group.....but for real i am sad that i am not a good leader for Lion Dance Camp group 8....I tried to lead them to the best but a lot of problem came and i had to settle them with a lot of effort...I really really enjoy all the fun with my group member....They gave me a very very nice holiday....
Although at the end of the competition we are the last one but i enjoy performing with them.... They tried their very best to follow my drum but i make a lot mistake when performing...I am really sorry...I appreciate the help of my vice leader Chew Ni.....She and Yee Sian helped me the most in the camp...Thanks a lot... Well i hope Chew Ni won't be sad or whatsoever for her PMR result anymore....She done a good job in teaching my group for me and in her PMR test.....
I LOVE CHLD CAMP SO MUCH THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET ALL THE FUN I HAD WITH MY MEMBER.....
Maybe no people know but actually on the last day of the camp i cried when Johnson started to cry.... I really hope they won't forget me....

Why is it always my fault???

Everytime she makes a mistake she is forgiven however everytime i make a little mistake i am scolded like a dog...What make her so powerful...As a brother can i have a better sister...As a son can i have a better parent....As a human can i have a better life????????
I need a new life...not a fucking laosy life like the one i have now....I need a better family...not a family that treat me like dust on the floor or a bunch of rubbish......
Can i??? If i can choose i want to be alone more than always been scolded and been teased...Is this too much to ask for? I don't think so.....
FUCK!!! THIS IS THE WORST HOLIDAY I EVER HAD!!!!!

Everything new...

Everything in this world change... No matter big changes or small changes it is still a change that will definitely give us some effect... It might not be a big effect but it might still make us felt different deep inside our heart and our mind...
In the past few weeks, I thought about this... Is there anything new happening this few days....Is there any changes happened this few days... Is there any effect to me even if something did happened... Am I wrong thinking like this? I don't think so..But at least I know it is only useless for me to do that and it is just a waste of time....
Every living things in this world have their meaning of life.... I wonder... do I have one? Maybe mine just something stupid and lack of importance.... Everyone had a dream... But now it is starting to fade away and i can't make it come back.....Maybe it thinks its useless to stay with a person without confidence in life so it decided to leave for good....
I wonder when will I have confidence in life.....Will I make it before my dreams leave and leave a puppet without dreams in this world?...

Logistics Work...

For real....even though i know this is holiday but i still cant make myself relax....maybe its because i got used to my logistics work in school....

I love logistics department....for me it is the best thing i could ever had in school life.....
Start from the first day of probation I think that my life had been destined to be a logistics worker...
Even if the amount of work is more than other departments but i still think that together we can handle all the work...
We went through alot of trouble...we had been scolded by our senior.....challenged by offenders but when ever we had problem...we united and settle it together....This is what we call as TEAMWORK!
A lot of people always said that logistics department is the most snake department in prefect board...I really piss off when they say that....We always help the school to work...When they need help we even help them in their work...We are not cyborg we also need rest.....but when there is someone that needed our help we will only help them with all our power...
This year we help in 3 sports day....our school sport days, mss miri, mss sarawak...
That is a lot of work for us....A lot of us even been hunted down by some flu or cough or what so ever...But we still work hard to accomplish our work even if it takes our life....
now finally its holiday...i think i need to rest more before Lion Dance camp comes out....

Well I still believe...No pain, no gain...Together we work, together we gain....
LOGISTICS ROCK!!!!

Finally....

This few days might be the happiest but also the most boring days in my life....Most of my friend went to kem chung hua however i did not join them because i have no interest in tat camp...After they went to the camp i feel extremely boring.....The only thing i can do for now is wait for them to come back and we can go out together again...

Yesterday....i went for my second car test...well i am kinda nervous at the start.....but i still manage to pass with 19 marks...HAHA i am fo good in driving..@_@...Well i still need to wait for my driving license before i can really drive my car around...