Camp...

For the first time of my life...I had the chance to lead a group.....but for real i am sad that i am not a good leader for Lion Dance Camp group 8....I tried to lead them to the best but a lot of problem came and i had to settle them with a lot of effort...I really really enjoy all the fun with my group member....They gave me a very very nice holiday....
Although at the end of the competition we are the last one but i enjoy performing with them.... They tried their very best to follow my drum but i make a lot mistake when performing...I am really sorry...I appreciate the help of my vice leader Chew Ni.....She and Yee Sian helped me the most in the camp...Thanks a lot... Well i hope Chew Ni won't be sad or whatsoever for her PMR result anymore....She done a good job in teaching my group for me and in her PMR test.....
I LOVE CHLD CAMP SO MUCH THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET ALL THE FUN I HAD WITH MY MEMBER.....
Maybe no people know but actually on the last day of the camp i cried when Johnson started to cry.... I really hope they won't forget me....

Why is it always my fault???

Everytime she makes a mistake she is forgiven however everytime i make a little mistake i am scolded like a dog...What make her so powerful...As a brother can i have a better sister...As a son can i have a better parent....As a human can i have a better life????????
I need a new life...not a fucking laosy life like the one i have now....I need a better family...not a family that treat me like dust on the floor or a bunch of rubbish......
Can i??? If i can choose i want to be alone more than always been scolded and been teased...Is this too much to ask for? I don't think so.....
FUCK!!! THIS IS THE WORST HOLIDAY I EVER HAD!!!!!

Everything new...

Everything in this world change... No matter big changes or small changes it is still a change that will definitely give us some effect... It might not be a big effect but it might still make us felt different deep inside our heart and our mind...
In the past few weeks, I thought about this... Is there anything new happening this few days....Is there any changes happened this few days... Is there any effect to me even if something did happened... Am I wrong thinking like this? I don't think so..But at least I know it is only useless for me to do that and it is just a waste of time....
Every living things in this world have their meaning of life.... I wonder... do I have one? Maybe mine just something stupid and lack of importance.... Everyone had a dream... But now it is starting to fade away and i can't make it come back.....Maybe it thinks its useless to stay with a person without confidence in life so it decided to leave for good....
I wonder when will I have confidence in life.....Will I make it before my dreams leave and leave a puppet without dreams in this world?...

Logistics Work...

For real....even though i know this is holiday but i still cant make myself relax....maybe its because i got used to my logistics work in school....

I love logistics department....for me it is the best thing i could ever had in school life.....
Start from the first day of probation I think that my life had been destined to be a logistics worker...
Even if the amount of work is more than other departments but i still think that together we can handle all the work...
We went through alot of trouble...we had been scolded by our senior.....challenged by offenders but when ever we had problem...we united and settle it together....This is what we call as TEAMWORK!
A lot of people always said that logistics department is the most snake department in prefect board...I really piss off when they say that....We always help the school to work...When they need help we even help them in their work...We are not cyborg we also need rest.....but when there is someone that needed our help we will only help them with all our power...
This year we help in 3 sports day....our school sport days, mss miri, mss sarawak...
That is a lot of work for us....A lot of us even been hunted down by some flu or cough or what so ever...But we still work hard to accomplish our work even if it takes our life....
now finally its holiday...i think i need to rest more before Lion Dance camp comes out....

Well I still believe...No pain, no gain...Together we work, together we gain....
LOGISTICS ROCK!!!!

Finally....

This few days might be the happiest but also the most boring days in my life....Most of my friend went to kem chung hua however i did not join them because i have no interest in tat camp...After they went to the camp i feel extremely boring.....The only thing i can do for now is wait for them to come back and we can go out together again...

Yesterday....i went for my second car test...well i am kinda nervous at the start.....but i still manage to pass with 19 marks...HAHA i am fo good in driving..@_@...Well i still need to wait for my driving license before i can really drive my car around...

Test..Muahahaha

Well test isn't something special la..For real haha...but when i think again...it is really important lo cause if i have good result my mom won't terminate me however if i got bad result i will be in heaven....or hell....I prefer hell haha..
This few days quite tiresome lo... too much test...when i finish one paper sometime there's still like one hour free time left for me.....How sad is that....I can only watch the other keeps on writing.....The only thing i like to do at that time is....think about my future....How boring is that....Well bye for now...

A better day I hope...

This few days I feel like I am more happy...even with all the stress I suffer in my study and my parents I still felt that I am more happy compare to before.....A lot happened this week....I sill can't change the fate that my study will suck compare to before but I am still trying my best to make my study better...I don't really think that will happen but i am still trying....
This few days I even think about our prom night next year....I am so excited for it but when I think again..I fell down again...I don't know who to invite for the special night....even though I have a girl in my mind but I really think it is a impossible name inside my list....I don't really know why i fall in love with her for 3 years but i still can't make a better move for this..
Well, for now I will still be trying to keep fit and make my study better so tat I can reach "THAT" goal....of mine....

What a troublesome duty...

Before...I thought staying in school doing my morning and recess duty is troublesome enough already...but now i only realize..actually going to stadium for sport days are much much more troublesome and almost absorb all my energy....
Haiz.....next week let's see how much thinner and darker i will become....Well this few days i only have one small question... Why the hake do i have feeling with them....
Although i can't find my answer yet but i will try my best to solve it...Let's see when i will find my answer...bye..

What a nice holiday..I think...

This holiday really is boring at the start....but thanks to all those troublesome activity now I am back ONLINE....muahaha...Today we went to the b~e~a~c~h for barbeque...haiz what a incredible memory...when it almost start...the god of rain and god of lightning come to play together ....and don't forget about the almighty wind god.... he is so powerful and i almost fly...EVEN ME SU ING KING ALMOST FLY...how incredible...
Well this isn't a very good holiday as i expected..but at least i had my fun at the beach so i won't mind much as long as i am alive and i have my fun....haha bye..

Stupid brain..

Haiz...I really regret for all those thing i done before and now... I always wondering..what's the reason for me to do all this thing to them don't care they are girl or boy...I know what i done isn't a good thing for them and also me myself but all i do isn't fixing the problem....I only cause more and more trouble for my friends and others....Even though i am trying to fix my personality but this only make me more emotional and short temper.....
I started to wonder....Am i doing the right thing or just another stupid thing that left a history inside my stupid brain that will make me regret forever....Now i am only hoping that it wasn't a mistake that would cause a painful memory for myself...and also to those that was affected because of my stupid idea and stupid solution for this problem....
I am really sorry especially to those two girls that i chose not to speak to.... For me they are the one that i would always making fun of that's why i chose to stop that bond that i create between me and them....Tis bond was created by teasing them and laugh at them when they do wrong....It is already too late for me to turn back so i will have to change all this to a better future and a better friendship....
I am really sorry.....

Emo...

Well.. it has been a few days since i last update so today let's talk about my feeling lately...
First of all...I think the amount of stress i received lately is increasing and this effect my a lot...Since the day i delete my relationship with them...those days was quite good but then it has become very boring days cause no more people top play with...even if that is what i actually need but i really was regret and feel sorry for what i done....Maybe mostly of them won't understand why i do so...but it is for the sake of everyone including me...I really hope that the next time i be friend with them again will be the day i totally change myself into a better person that won't make people angry or feel annoying of...Well those stress lately made me have more close contact with the wall with my punch even though i know that way is just to torture myself but its the best way i can think out of to control myself....
Even for now i still face problem in stress and emotion management i even become short temper so i really want to be a better person hope them can understand...
That's all for this time i will update as soon as possible.....

The main subject is here....Actually started from the day i communicate with some gal that i think they are my frens...I am very happy because i have frens that wasn't a boy... but now i began to regret...I started to think that girl wasn't as good as wat i tot they were.... Today i decided to pause my friendship with a gal i appreciate alot and i even think of her as my very very good friends...or even my sister...but now i started to pause this relationship so that i can really change myself and make me a better person that can understand thier feelings and be a good listener or a good buddy for them....
Last few days i quarrel with a gal in my class even though this isn't the 1st time e had this problem but i just piss off at that very "special" time... Now is the time i started to change myself from a person that make ppl andry to a person that ppl appreciate more than other...

This will be what i have for today i will update my blog as soon as possible hehe
from: Ing King

My feelings..

This is the 1st time i use a blog and my english isn't very good that's why hope u all understand...
Recently..Our school organized a competition between class and definitely it is class decoration prize....I wonder why will this little competition caused so many trouble...
I think some of u might noe the trouble i mentioned...
Well i am just a nobody in my class thats y i don't reli noe what happened but from what i noe they done alot of usless things let's put some example...They cry after some moron said that they copy their idea...they scold each other for been sensitive because of the thing....and they even try to talk back even if they realize ( or mayb they din ) this is useless..Tat day was a total mess even after they continue their work...they still blaming each other for that...