Camp...

For the first time of my life...I had the chance to lead a group.....but for real i am sad that i am not a good leader for Lion Dance Camp group 8....I tried to lead them to the best but a lot of problem came and i had to settle them with a lot of effort...I really really enjoy all the fun with my group member....They gave me a very very nice holiday....
Although at the end of the competition we are the last one but i enjoy performing with them.... They tried their very best to follow my drum but i make a lot mistake when performing...I am really sorry...I appreciate the help of my vice leader Chew Ni.....She and Yee Sian helped me the most in the camp...Thanks a lot... Well i hope Chew Ni won't be sad or whatsoever for her PMR result anymore....She done a good job in teaching my group for me and in her PMR test.....
I LOVE CHLD CAMP SO MUCH THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET ALL THE FUN I HAD WITH MY MEMBER.....
Maybe no people know but actually on the last day of the camp i cried when Johnson started to cry.... I really hope they won't forget me....

Why is it always my fault???

Everytime she makes a mistake she is forgiven however everytime i make a little mistake i am scolded like a dog...What make her so powerful...As a brother can i have a better sister...As a son can i have a better parent....As a human can i have a better life????????
I need a new life...not a fucking laosy life like the one i have now....I need a better family...not a family that treat me like dust on the floor or a bunch of rubbish......
Can i??? If i can choose i want to be alone more than always been scolded and been teased...Is this too much to ask for? I don't think so.....
FUCK!!! THIS IS THE WORST HOLIDAY I EVER HAD!!!!!

Everything new...

Everything in this world change... No matter big changes or small changes it is still a change that will definitely give us some effect... It might not be a big effect but it might still make us felt different deep inside our heart and our mind...
In the past few weeks, I thought about this... Is there anything new happening this few days....Is there any changes happened this few days... Is there any effect to me even if something did happened... Am I wrong thinking like this? I don't think so..But at least I know it is only useless for me to do that and it is just a waste of time....
Every living things in this world have their meaning of life.... I wonder... do I have one? Maybe mine just something stupid and lack of importance.... Everyone had a dream... But now it is starting to fade away and i can't make it come back.....Maybe it thinks its useless to stay with a person without confidence in life so it decided to leave for good....
I wonder when will I have confidence in life.....Will I make it before my dreams leave and leave a puppet without dreams in this world?...